28 July 2010, 10:32 am
I have a 8 week old baby boy and he's my angel even if he wasn't planned but I love my baby more than life. I'm getting married in October. But I don't really want to marry my fiance since he's white and I'm biracial( black and white) and I don't trust white men based on experience but he is the father of my child and I want my baby to have a normal family and upbringing unlike I did. And I have a family so I can't think of myself. His parents basically surprised us by saying that they will pay for our wedding and have already hired a wedding planner and have booked all the locations and the honeymoon to Hawaii for us as a wedding gift. I wasn't really happy that they did that already for us but I know they were just doing it for a good sake. So it's too late now. I'm not going to be stupid and cancel all my plans or be a runaway bride. I'm 21 and my fiance is 24. We have been together since I was 19 so he's been my first serious relationship as an adult. At first I really loved him and got butterflies in my tummy when I saw him now that is gone. Now he annoys me, and he can't seem to do anything right even if he tries. But he loves his son and he told me he wants us to start having another baby again but I don't. The first one wasn't planned and I was in college and I want to continue with that. But I feel like I haven't really done anything in my life except be with him. I got pregnant around the time I turned 21 so I haven't really been drinking or going out as much as I want to. I would also like to date other men and see how it is but it's too late. I feel like I'm too young to be a mom and a wife. I love my family but I feel as if there's so much I'm missing. What should I do?... Read More »
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